A Leap of Faith
As I approach the launch of my new business, Apothecary Studios, I am reminded of the tarot card The Fool. The Fool is poised on the precipice of a cliff, gaze directed upward, clutching a rose depicting innocence, and followed by a small white dog, representing loyalty and support. The Fool is so preoccupied with the start of the journey that he doesn’t heed the steep drop ahead of him, signifying that he is willing to take the plunge into the unknown, despite the challenges of the vast landscape ahead of him.
Now that my launch party and fundraiser is only a week away, I am really relating to the message of this card. There is the sheer exhilaration of leaping headlong into my passions, but also apprehension. It has taken me a long time to gain the courage to move forward with this venture, as I have repeatedly convinced myself that I wasn’t ready, or that I hadn’t accumulated enough knowledge, or that my house wasn’t ready to receive guests. So many excuses. There is a paralysis that comes with fear, a whisper of “what if I’m not good enough to pull this off?”
Vulnerability is difficult for me, as I imagine it is for a lot of people. Sharing my spiritual values, as well as my creative work, requires being seen in a way that I often protect myself against. But the excitement of being able to express these interests and learn alongside my community far outweighs the limiting fear of inadequacy. And it seems that the more I expose my heart and truth to others, the more generosity and kindness I have received in return. I am so utterly grateful to my friends and family for their support and encouragement!
So, like The Fool, I will allow my passion to dictate my future, not my fear. And I am so excited to start planning community events and workshops in all manner of fascinating topics. Looking forward to the future, I already have so many incredible people I want to invite to share their knowledge, so many artists and writers, herbalists and spiritual practitioners. I hope you’ll follow my journey into the abyss and continue to return the love I have been sending out to you all!